Lately, I’ve been coming into the bad dres of trying to be a different person. A more being or a jug being because I realized that not everyone will understand my heat, my sense and my overzealous reactions to prosaic concepts. In national societies that labels anyone who’s not cool, calm and collected’ I chose I want to stay away from that label so I struggled more than once to curb my fiery nature to be’ cool’ and’ chill’ because I conceived I could
After all, it is easier to be wintry than it is to be passionate and feeling. And it’s better to be’ calm’ than’ crazy.’ But after a while of doing so and after I felt like I was forgetting my name to people who were strongly attached to theirs and after I realized that being this new person is still not making me the kind of pleasure or peace of mind that I’m looking for, I realized that when you change who you are to fit in, it becomes “youre feeling” even more alone, it attains you feel like a fraud, it forms you feel like you’re losing yourself and you’re not really acquiring anyone over or get what you genuinely demand. It’s a situation.
The truth is I’d preferably be passionate, sensitive and’ crazy’ and be me than try to be someone else. I’d instead not to be hot, shivering and soothe if it’s going to bring me temporary parties, fleeting happy and entice a bunch of people who don’t really like me for who I am . strong>
Because I’ve had people who loved and abode me all “peoples lives”, I’ve had people who loved my feeling, understood my sensitivity and increased my overzealous mood. People who are still in “peoples lives”. Love who recollect my nature is the reason why they stayed in my life, colleagues who ponder my sense and spirits are the reason why I’m thriving in my career and people who reputed my overzealous behaviour was charming and magnetic.
And perhaps we don’t need to change something if we don’t think it’s wrong. Maybe we don’t need to change it if it’s sufficing us well. Perhaps we don’t need to be part of the majority to feel like we belong. Maybe all we really involve is to be better different versions of ourselves and the right people will find us and enjoy us for all the right intellects . strong>
Because when you change who you truly are to become someone else glad, you’ll be the one who is dwelling in hardship, disarray and you’ll be disappointed in yourself and I’d preferably have you sadden others than sadden yourself because you will never stretch tall if you retain stooping over backwards to remain people who wouldn’t even lift a finger for you or be there when you show them who you truly are.
Because you can only act for so long. It’s simply a matter of time before the real you feels its road back to you and it’s simply a matter of time before you truly miss it and realize that telling it extend was a huge mistake. If you want to change, change because you want to, because you feel like you need to, because it’s going to see your life better but please don’t ever change for parties, don’t ever tell people sway you into believing that there’s something wrong with you time because you acts differently. Please don’t ever apologize for your experiences.